Growth's Purgatory
I've wanted to write this for a long time. What this is? I'm not quite sure. From what I've gathered so far, at least some of it is fueled by fear. Fear, a word I wish I could confidently say wasn't in my vocabulary. I concept that I have realized has been fueling too many of my adult decisions. Fear, something that has lined the insides of my being and continuously blocked blessing after blessing in my life. The current demon that I consistently and constantly attempt to pray away. Every small step forward is a progress to be celebrated. Shaky steps they may be...at least they're slowly moving forward. I remember being a version of myself that was led by optimism and best case scenarios. I'm grateful she's still in there somewhere, but the older I get the higher the consequences. The smarter I become, the more I wish I knew before I made some very expensive mistakes. No one told me that with self-care and healing would also come the mourning. I mour...
